September
It used to be my favorite month...sort of cooler weather (though today it will be 95 degrees), leaves begin to change some by the end of the month, I don't know...I have just always like it. I also love the birthstone, Sapphire.
Now I have two of those beautiful sapphires in a mother's ring.
Of two precious children who aren't here.
I don't like September quite the same anymore.
The whole month of September does this to me: anytime I say, write, hear, or think "September" my mind immediately adds "the 24th". That is W & K's birthday. The whole month is just a work up to that day. After that day, I breath again. They would have been (will be? in Heaven) 9 years old. Wow.
I don't know when or if this will get easier than it is now. It's certainly better than it was at first when I was a wreck most of the time, certainly this time of year. Some years it has snuck up on me, suddenly it's Sept 12 or something. But mostly, I'm keenly aware of the approaching day.
I've moved on to October. It's really cooler, leaves are changing MORE, it's Colby's birthday, and this year we'll celebrate our 13th anniversary on Oct 4.
Yep, October is definitely better.
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Thank you so much for sharing this. Your September is my August. When I am finally breathing a sigh of relief that the month is over, you are preparing for your journey of reminders and emptiness. We have both been blessed with 2 beautiful children here on earth and are thankful for them, but the longing still lingers that all of our children could be with us now. Will be praying for you this month.
ReplyDeleteThanks Cheryl (hugs) to you. It just really screws up the whole month!
ReplyDeleteRemembering your sweet precious angels with you this month!! You are always on my mind in September (((((hugs)))))
ReplyDeleteI truly hate it when I know you are in pain. I actually take the month of September as a blessing because without it we may have never even had our precious W and K, and even though they are no longer with us here on earth, they will forever be in our hearts. So, I celebrate them and know that we will see them again one day. I Love you so much and I pray that one day your broken heart will not be as heavy when you think of them.
ReplyDeleteLove, Mom